I've been on almost top of my years of school. My undergraduate thesis has been on progress. Yet, I am feeling happy and mad at the same time. I mean, this year could drive me crazy because I should struglle on my own whether to continue learning, get married, find a job or idk. If I continue learning, then I have to find a scholarship to fund me. Fee for master degree in Indonesia is all Rp. 8 million while it is also a first year of my lil brother for college. This must be hard for my mom as the breadwinner 😢. Second, being married to is a certainty for a women who likes children like me haha. But but, it is not that easy. Am I taking too many consideration? 😳 I already find a man, but we both are freshgraduates so we should find money first. And this leads to the third choice. Find a job. I like children so Im thinking about teaching secondary school, in which pre-service teacher would not get as much salary as others. It's fine I think bcs my future husband will create more money haha. So I will just provide him more honey. You know what I mean huh? 😝 However, let's be realistic that finding a job is not a piece of cake.
Ya Rabb plis helppp.
Nah. The reason why I feel happy to graduate soon is because I think hm I think I don't enjoy being part of my university. It is almost 4 years and I find a few reasons to not hate my univ, friendship like tralalaB class and lecturers like Maam Raras, Maam Rini, and Maam Wiwiet❤ The facility, the building, the buerucracy, the funding, the, the, .... I mean, It is a state university, but knowing the fact that it's difficult to use the rest room due to its watering system, only few classrooms are supported with LCD, not included in any scholarship such as beswan jarum, KSE, etos, padahal univ lain sejenis di kota yg sama aja masuk list mereka. Sekalinya dapat PPA, malah dipotong sekian persen dg alasan buat pembangunan. Hahahaha. Where do our fee during each semester go??????? Astaghfirullah. Semoga ini hanya kesalahan ku mengartikan. Atau mungkin aku yang terlalu banyak membandingkan😢😳😩
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